**WARNING** This post contains images which some viewers may find offensive!

I promised you honesty and here is 13 stone and 8 lbs of it. GULP. It would have been 13 stone 10 lbs but for those of you who were wondering, I braved the scales at Slimming World last night and despite the feast, I lost 2 lbs. The sticker was perhaps too much of an ask (this time). I think these are the only ‘before and after’ shots you will see which appear to be the wrong way round but no, your eyes do not deceive you, the damn things are in the right order.

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This post is particularly hard for me because for the last 2 years or so, I’ve managed quite successfully to conceal my rolls and wobbles. Clothes really do hide a multitude of sins! The truth is though; my excess chub is all I’ve managed to conceal. What I haven’t been able to hide is how my weight has made me feel, both physically and emotionally. I have often felt like I have been imprisoned in someone else’s body, and unfortunately for me, it’s been one hell of a greedy one.

When I started thinking about a doing a blog, a close friend said me to “go hard or go home” and she was right. I have hid behind clothes, namely black and baggy ones, for so long I knew that if I didn’t ‘bare all’ on here, I wouldn’t feel like I was being true to myself. So here it is. My big fat secret. There isn’t anything negative that anyone can say about my photos that I haven’t already said about myself but I knew posting them, as hard as it would be, would give me the accountability I needed to change the habits I had developed over the last couple of years. There really isn’t anywhere left to hide now.

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I have spent way too long looking in the mirror and criticising what I have seen and I’m making it my mission to stop that. This is my body, it keeps me alive and able to do the things I love, and it’s time to start treating it better **Note to self, treating it better does not include rewarding it with chocolate**.

23 thoughts on “**WARNING** This post contains images which some viewers may find offensive!

  1. Go for it Sally. Your honesty in your blog and in group about the way you feel I’m sure resonates with others. Keep that determination and you’ll definitely achieve your goals.

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  2. it’s clear you’re serious about wanting to make changes and I think using the blog as a diary is a great way of channeling all your thoughts. The humour is so relatable and the honesty is really refreshing. I’m really looking forward to following this “journey” (what a cliché!), and seeing where the next 3, 6, 12 months take you.
    Lx

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  3. Im not going to lie I noticed you had put a bit of weight on at the gym but you always look gorgeous so i was shocked when I read your first blog saying you had put 3 stones on as you certainly didn’t look like you had …I admire you immensely for being so honest about what you want to achieve and I know you will do it because you are amazing : ))

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  4. Well done Sal! It’s not offensive in any sense of the word, it’s not some peoples’ ideas of perfection but you’re grateful enough to see that it works and humble and honest enough to be waaaay more admirable than some stick insect who hasn’t eaten chocolate in years.
    Kudos to you! I can’t wait to read the rest of your journey to a svelte goddess with an enviable booty!
    Lots of love x

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  5. First of all….. this made me lol!!! Alot!!! Been there, done that….. got the baggy black clothes to prove it. I can totally relate and empathise. After being slim and size 10 all my life up until I had my children….. I am now NOT a size 10 shall we say. I don’t like to look at myself and I hate the way people look at me. I can’t tolerate clothes shopping as I STILL can’t accept myself as the big person I am so I avoid it altogether. However I am trying very hard to get on and enjoy my life regardless, as we only get one right?
    I wish you all the best with your Slimming World endeavours – I look forward to hearing how it goes.
    P.s. Wish I had taken some ‘slim’ before shots!

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    1. Thanks Tracy. I’m quickly coming to realise I’m not on my own with this but maybe it’s time we made a change. However we find that way and however long it takes us, we really need to be our own version of beautiful, whatever that looks like xx

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  6. You are a beautiful woman 💛. With the love and support of your family and friends you can do this. Always have that positive attitude “I CAN DO THIS” #GoSally x

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  7. Nicely written Sally. If I may comment from a male perspective, I’m attracted to women who are real. Sure, I may have a superficial response to a model or a film star, but I also find kindness, intelligence and honesty in a woman draws me to her time and time again, whereas a slim figure and a “flawless complexion”, as the adverts have it, soon gets boring. I hope you look like how you want to look in the end, if this makes you happy, but I feel just that wee bit sorry that you can’t yet see just how gorgeous you are now. M. Xxx

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    1. Thanks Mark 🙂 It has taken me a long time to appreciate the importance of those values you mention and I also know that these far outweigh physical appearance. My goal is to feel comfortable, physically and emotionally, in my own body. I just want to be the best version of myself, no one else. Besides man! Chub rub hurts! Xxxxxxx

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  8. Well written Sally and so refreshing to read an honest account. Now you are in the correct head zone you will achieve it. Sometimes failure makes us want to do it again but even better. Turn the NO into the next opportunity. I am on my weight loss mission too! Looking forward to following it xx

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  9. Well done Sally. I’m enjoying reading the blogs. I’m sure that you will spur many people to achieve their goals along with you. x

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  10. I think I’m going to write this down
    **Note to self, treating {my body} better does NOT include rewarding it with chocolate**
    and print it a few times to stick it to the cupboards, in the kitchen, and to my computer screen…
    It is so hard to be consistent on this one…
    As for the pictures you posted… dear Sally, It looks like pics of ME !
    Let’s believe in :
    “Where there’s a WILL, there’s a WAY”… and keep trying.
    We are positive people, right 😉
    At some point, we might get stronger and learn not to love putting food in our mouths so much…

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